This week I have been laying quite low thanks to another persistent round of headaches.
I am finding that I get to have 2 weeks of productivity and 2 weeks of headaches these days.
It’s no fun at all I can tell you!!!
I’m just thankful I’m not trying to hold down a full time job (in the formal sense) and that my children are past the “can’t turn your backs on them” stage.
(Although in light of recent events with Abbie giving herself a ‘charming’ haircut this week, perhaps I need to rethink that lol!).
So I count myself thankful that I can afford to go into “survival mode” and lay low if I need to, because a lot of my life in the last few weeks has been staring up at this here view…
I started a new medication a few months ago to try and overcome this problem I’ve lived with for years, but that in turn has caused other side effects and it’s own issues as well.
My specialist did say it could take 6-9 months on the medication to come right, but that was only with a 50% prediction it would work in the first place.
Not super great odds and I find myself questioning whether I should stick with it or not.
It all feels a bit miserable and hopeless either way if I’m honest.
But it is SO hard to do anything when your head feels like it’s in a vice and you are in chronic pain the whole day
(Especially when you can’t see an end in sight)
so I’m about at the stage I’ll try anything to move past them.
Mine are not tension headaches but hormone headaches.
Hence the regular cyclical nature of them.
It doesn’t happen every month, but certainly most months I have them.
Always the same.
Always seemingly endless.
I literally wake up with one one day and it lasts all day every day until one day it goes and isn’t there any more.
Pretty much the same day every.single.month.
Sometimes it even takes me a while to realise it’s actually gone because I’m just so used to functioning through them and trying to get on with things.
I try not to take pain meds unless they get absolutely unmanageable because I haven’t really found anything to be effective anyway and I don’t want to get addicted to anything. Nothing takes away the pain or really even takes the edge off so I figure what is the point.
Most of the time I just live with the pain and go through my daily routine regardless, but especially some afternoons, or if my vision decides to go blurry, I can’t really do much except take to my bed in the dark.
Have you ever suffered with headaches?
Any suggestions for trying to get rid of them/manage them?
I didn’t write this as a “woe is me” post… I just wanted to share my struggle really.
I try as hard as I can not to let them affect me and just live through them, but try as I might they obviously affect me and everyone around me.
Especially on bad weeks like this one.
At best I’m a space cadet.
At worst I’m completely useless to anyone.
I just wish there was a magic pill I could take to make them go away.
That is all…